9月27日 是我第一次出來金鐘佔領
至今已經一個月有多
說實話，面對家人的質疑，群眾的謾罵與同學的漠不關心，
加上學業上的壓力， 前一陣子的我實在是提不起勁。
記得有次早上，我在通宵佔領金鐘後回校上課，發現校園內的黃絲帶為數並不多，而文宣更是寥寥可數，我的心已涼了一半；上課時，同學談論的話題均是：“你做完present未?" "我夜晚要con會呀”之類；下課後，在回宿舍的路上，有兩名把Facebook頭像轉成黃絲帶的女同學在斜路上大聲談話:"今晚不如打牌啦！ 十點好無?" 我立即想起某位與我於街頭抗爭了十多日的女生的一段話:
我本身都好冷靜，只係單純地笑唔出。直到我行出canteen見到一班人係個時候仲可以好開心咁campus tour／揮旗／嗌cheers，唔知點解我既反應唔係上前罵佢地，而係本能地喊左出黎。
（由於原文包含少量粗言穢語，故我作出了一些改動）
其實當時我完全明白她的感受，我很記得我回校那天的前一晚發生了什麼事：在龍和道被噴胡椒噴霧，看見自己的同學被警棍打，手握著鐵馬站在最前線，大聲公不斷播放被捕支援熱線的號碼，那一刻的感受我畢生難忘，是真的很害怕，害怕被拉，害怕被打，但更害怕的是眼睜睜看著戰友被打但我卻無能為力。
大學生，本是最有空間出來抗爭的一批人。但這一個多月來，我身邊許多同學都像是湊熱鬧或趕潮流般，出來一兩晚，照張相片，在Facebook打下卡，留個自以為勵志的Status,就覺得自己的公民責任已經完成。就算是前一晚看電視:"哇警察好暴力呀! 這個政府真黑暗!" 第二天，還是可以談笑風生，興致勃勃討論著別人的是非。整個校園猶如一道圍牆，就算圍牆外的戰況多麼慘烈，圍牆內的人依然自得其樂，好像個個人也是離地中產。
說實話，我實在很想逃出嶺南校園回到旺角訓街。雖然環境惡劣，但也比在圍牆內開心。
Today is 29/10/2014
It has been 32 days since I stayed at Admiralty and Mong Kok.
To be honest, I felt frustrated sometimes, because of the pressure from my family and the society.
But it's also the "not-caring-at-all" from classmates.
I clearly remembered that that was the day after "Lung Wo Incident".
I stayed at Lung Wo for all night, and I got injured by pepper spray, in the morning, I went back to campus to have class.
During the class, no one has ever talked about the situation last night, no one has ever asked me if anyone get hurt or not. All they care is about the consultation day and the assignment.
After the class, I walked back to my hostel. And I heard two girls were chatting really loudly. (Both of them changed their Facebook profile picture to yellow ribbon)
One girl said" Let's play mahjong tonight! How about 10？“
It reminds me of one status of my friend, she said " I was not mad at all, I just can't do the fake smile since I am really in the bad mood. But when I see people who was doing the campus tour,shouting their cheers for consultation day, I cried suddenly, and I don't know why."
Actually I can fully understand how she felt.
University students, at this moment, we are supposed to stand out and strive for our future. But it seems like in campus, no one care about this at all. Even though some people would watch TV news and think that the police forces were really using violence, but then, they just get back to their own lives. Chatting, playing mahjongs, sharing gossips, no one cares if any students get injured. It's like a wall, which isolate Lingnan and the outside.
I would rather go back to Mongkok, at least I am not in the wall.
I appreciate you that you use your own experiance and sincere heart to write this bilingual blog entry. Apart form that, I think that most of the students do care about the protest and the future of Hong Kong. Most of them are willing to stand up for the protest.(even if they only coming for a few days) However, I think the main problem is that this protest are lasting longer and longer. Therefore, the passion and the energy of all of the people will be less after this period of time. It should be come to a solution(maybe the protest can be upgraded).
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